Tears was the best gift from you.

1:44 PM 12 November, 2009

Chocolate sundae is as sweet as ~~love~~:D
Haha. My aunt today sent me to bus stop via bicycle.
Thankyou very much~
Morning ate Porridge with Thanaporn and Jovia!
Niceeeeee~ but very full.
Lol, reached school very early and the classroom door is locked.
Sigh. Then waited outside the classroom.
Ohmygod, Poa lesson is veryvery stoopid and boring :X
Thanks Xinying for lending her homework as reference :D
Hahah.
Fell asleep during the Poa class.
Quite a number of people were late for class today.
Haha, if it was Mrs Lee's class, i bet everyone will be earlier.
Yay! Tomorrow's last lesson for the holiday.
Next week, there'll be day camp.
So boreed.
Don't feeel like attending it.
But what else can i do if i don't attend?
I want to sing :D
So i think i'm going.
Hahaha, maybe going out with clique to Kbox someday.
Yean just now texted me and said that the date will be confirmed again.
LOL! Friday's barbeque was cancelled.
Just because there were too many opinions :P
Its too last minute too lor.
Wow, so many people going overseas soon!
Thanaporn going back to Thailand till Jan :D
So coool. I also want to get out of Singapore.
Thinking about those homework undone, totally no mood for holiday lor.
Why do teachers love to give so many homework to us?!
Its not as if we have a year to complete them lor.
Somemore, next year we won't have the time to rest already, why don't they let us have a short break before the commence of a hectic year?
Sigh sigh sigh.
I can't wait to leave high school and enter a poly :D
Woohoo its gonna be a new experience.
So i really hope that 2011 come faster!
Man. I seriously feel like catching a movie.
Either : "My Sister's Keeper" or "2012" !
Still deciding who to watch with.
Wonder how does it feels like to watch movies alone.
Sounds very fun and interesting.
One day if i'm really down, i will go and have a try :D

Now i'm watching "Hi My Sweetheart".
Love both actors - Rainie Yang and Show Luo.
Hahah, Show looks so adorable "Hi My Sweetheart."
Friends, go and watch it! :D
Yayayyayayay! Tomorrow's friday already :D
Karate, i'm coming!
One month plus 8 days, there'll be grading already :D
I want to get Yellow belt :D
& get all the stunts right.
Hahah, just now ate maggie mee with cabbage!
D-e-li-cious!!
Saved some cash by doing so C:
Chemistry and biology remedials tomorrow and no more schooling!
Hope i can see [seveeeen] tomorrow!

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i guess i know why already, cause i _ _ _ _ you!
I'm off to my bath :D
Stay tuned for my next post.
Goodbye!

Labels: ♥

9:48 PM 11 November, 2009

& i have this sudden rush in my mind that caused me to have great urge to write up my thoughts for today.

In the afternoon, very tired and mood-less.
So decided to post pictures to indicate my feelings.
I thought i didn't have any emotions already.
Felt so dead X.X
Lunched with Yuting as per normal, tried out Fish and Chips at the nearby coffeeshop.
Wheeee, we have harsh weather today.
The sun scorched our backs so harshly that it nearly burnt my skin.
I'm exaggerating.
Sadly, it didn't rain :(
Wow. Now i have so many things on my mind.
:( :( :(
And i have nobody to talk to.
Ok, let me clear my thoughts and let me have a few moments of peace.
I WANT TO GET TANKTOPS!!
I WANT TO GET CONTACT LENS!!
I WANT TO PUT ON BRACES!!
I WANT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE!!!!!
I WANT TO BE HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYY! {:
Lol.
It didn't help much though, the problems i'm facing now are still there :X
The problems that lies between us seems so smalllll but at the same time, its so difficult to face it and solve.
Talking about school.
Ahhhah. I wasn't late today.
Saw Mrs Lee while walking up the stairs.
Today woke up early thats why.
Yesterday skipped yoga :P
No strength + Exhausted + sesenm!
Enough to make me skip yoga :D
Anyways, school was okay for me.
Maths and chinese.
Woah, today Ms Wang damn furious cause alot of people wasn't doing the group work and the guys are talking away.
LOL. So she dismissed us at a later time.
Then we had our Emaths test, manageable i think.
Some questions were tedious.
Yeah, i just hope i can get a good pass :D
Ohmygod, Yuting loves to eat alot alot alot lah.
Haha, then she claimed that she will cut down on her diet.
Tomorrow she surely eat alot again (:
And one thing i know about her is that she loves to eat Yam pau.
So haha, on her birthday, i may get her a dozen of them :D :D :D
Yesterday my hamster slept with me.
Felt so safe :D
I think she slept well but she hated that small cage she was kept in.
Too little space to move around i think.
Hahah, when i'm rich i will get her one bigger cage.
But not as big as someone's cage, two-floor somemore.
I'm looking forward to Friday, there'll be Karate :D
Can exercise already.
Hahah, and choir rehearsal on that day.
Think alot of people not attending lor :(
Sigh, there's still day camp on monday tuesday and wednesday.
I don't have the mood to go to camps.
And there'll be Poa re-exam for me.
Still unsure whether i'll be going or not, pointless.
-.-
SIANNNNNNNNNNNN RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :/
Ohmygod. Why's my life so boring and uninteresting?
Its holidays now and but why is the ambience still like normal school days?
Hai. I still have months to go before i can leave that school.
Its super long.
I want to get out of that school as soon as possible!
Then i'll get freedom and some other reasons.
And i will forget about those bad memories and leave them all in that school.
Stoopid memories! :(

Yesyes! I may get to go Malaysia during 20november if i'm not wrong.
Was so elated when my mum told me about it lah.
Finally can go visit my grandparents and my cute Jackie.
Wow. Today's 11/11/09!
Such a special day lah.
Heard from the fm that some countries like China celebrate this day by eating four "Youtiao" for don't know what reasons.
So cute lah :D
Ohyah, THANKYOU MRS LEE FOR THE BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT!
Hohohoho.
*bigbigsmile & *bigbigthankyou.
This was the first time i expect birthday present from a teacher.
So i was preety happy about it.
Thankyou!
I guess thats one of the happy things that happened today.
Another one is that i get to have my afternoon nap :D
Slept till like six plus today, so now i'm very energetic and active.
Anyone don't feel like sleeping yet?
Haha, give me a call.
I can give you my fullest attention.
Lol :P

Tomorrow morning gonna have breakfast with Thanaporn, Jovia and maybe Yuting :d
Meeting them at 8.
So gonna read my book later and turn in later.
My target for today is : 11.15!
Yay. Just now managed to complete some of my holiday homeworks.
Have to start to do them now or else i won't have time for revision.
Wonder where to get motivation to study on my own in my comfy house.
Hope i can get a friend to study with me.
But who who who? :X
I wanna go sing kbox during the holidays leh.
Wonder Monkey sister or Steady will be free? :X
Eck. Grace haven't date me out yet.
Gonna call her when i'm free to remind her that we're supposed to meet.
I'm zuper bored now.
Yay, just two more days i can say ~~byebye~~ to that school.
Thinking of that makes me feel happy but at the same time sad.
Because because i will _ _ _ _ _ _ _
fill in the blanks if you have got nothing to do :D
Nevermind, Zhixian believes in fate.
Zhixian knows that if things are fated to be like that, nothing can change it.
Zhixian just wants to love.
Zhixian knows that there won't be any outcome but she just couldn't bear to give up now.
Zhixian knows that she needs time to heal.
Zhixian wants to get over it as soon as possible.
I'm optimistic.
I know that god doesn't want me to be involved in any relationships anymore cause he knows that i'm not suited to have any now.
God wants me to stay focused in whatever i'm doing now and he doesn't want me to get hurt.
God loves me and wants me to have happiness.
God is reminding me that the love now is just an infatuation and will not last long.
God is by my side and will see me through my darkest part of my life.
God will always be there for me.
God wants me to be independent and be strong that is why he is taking friends away from me and saying no you need to have your own points of views and settle your problems yourself.
God has my best interests at heart.
So, i love god just as much as i love my family.
Though i'm not a christian but i do believe that God do exist :D
A long post had come to an end.
ohmygod. Just as i thought of him, his msn popped out from the computer screen.
Goodbye.

♥ Meow, when will you be free? :(
Sad lor. You that time say want to date me out in the end, don't have.
How can you cheat my feelings?
I miss you dearly.
Tell me when you'll be available ok?
Lovelovelove you!

4:18 PM

I'm upset :'(
Everynight, i waited for miracles to happen.
But still, it didn't.

Labels: Pictures tells everything.

3:00 PM 10 November, 2009

Handsomedog. If you happen to be here, see my second post. :D

Stomach cramps are killing me!!! D:
urgh, today went to school and i was late.
For the first time in these two weeks i suppose.
Morning woke up at around 7, washed up all those.
And because of my stoopid sesnem, i didn't have enough time to finish my breakfast.
LOL.
Went out and i saw my bus.
-.-
Super sian.
Waited for another bus for like 15 mins.
Ok, announced late.
Saw Zhengyao on the bus.
He damn hardworking lah, reading the book on the bus till he reached school still reading man :X
Whats wrong with guys nowadays? :D
Haha, talking about storybooks.
My "Poppyland" still unfinished :X
Can't blame me also, cause school's so crazily packed with homeworks.
But its quite good also, then i won't waste these two weeks rotting at home doing nothing useful.
Dashed to class and everyone was already there.
Damn paiseh :/
[L]

Just had lunch at Yishun.
Haha, its Terriyaki Baked Pasta w Redbean Icecream.
I like the pasta alot alot, super tasty.
But the icecream was okay too.
Very very sweet.
So i only ate the icecream without eating the Redbean. :/
Yeahh because of lunch and that i need to rush and one more thing - sesnem, i can't go bowling with my clique.
:(
I supposed they're having lots of fun right now.
Nevermind then. I think without me, there's no difference also.
Yean like quite upset lor :X
Maybe cause sudddenly i can't go when its supposed to be a clique outing.
Sorrrrry girls.
My sesnem's fault.
Anyways, went home with Yuting then.
We stopped at Canberra Secondary and then walked in the rain.
Super like the feeling lah.
Being drenched is very cooling.
Hahah, next time try with my other friends.
I wonder if i may get a cold or something, cause till now i haven't bathed yet.
But who cares?
Its been long time since i was ill.
Hahah, if i'm ill, it may even be a relief to someone.
Then someone won't have to see me :X
I'll try it out during December with the help of Yuting :D
Hope it'll work out.
I want everything to go on smoothly before a new year commences.
Or else i may just suffocate to death.
Tomorrow got lessons again, SIGH!
Maths and i think biology? :D
I haven't done my homework and some revision for tomorrow's test.
I want to do well this time (:
Wish me luck.
Haha, i've done something great yesterday, that is, I SLEPT SO EARLY.
11pm.
Long time since i slept so early.
And one more thing is that i didn't message someone as i intended yesterday.
I don't want him to find me a nuisance, thats why.
Heard that Friday there'll be a barbeque for our class.
Don't think i'll be going :X
Makes no difference also.
One important thing i wanna do today is to sleep well at around 10.30, my new target.
Stay up late at night will only make my brain more active and my mind will be filled with rubbish.
Thinking about this and that also makes no sense.
But why am i still thinking about it?
Sigh.
I saw your number.
I feel like dialing it.
But when i pressed the numbers.
I don't have the strength to call you.
I'm scared of rejection.
I'm in a dilemma.
Cause if i don't try, i'll never know the outcome.
But i don't dare to.
I'm scared that i may just spoil everything.
I wonder if i still can call you or not :X
Sian. I feel like taking a short nap.
The weather is so good.
Will be taking a quick bath and to sleep for awhile later on.
Then after that do my homework!
Woah, i love the new conditioner i've bought recently.
It has the smell of honey, very sweet.
K lah, i'm off.
Will try to online tonight though.
want to see his reply.

Sayonara.

I wanna go overseas man [:
I wanna go my Grandparents' house for a long stay.
I wanna go get a puppy.
I wanna go Japan\Taiwan\Korea.
I wanna go out shopping.
I wanna go out with you! :D
I wanna go back to the past when you're still friendly to me.
I wanna I wanna I wanna ~
God can you grant me what i want?
{:

( from friendster's bulletin board)
Message: Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.
> > • give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
> > • leave her cute text notes.
> > • kiss her in front of your friends.
> > • tell her she looks beautiful.
> > • look into her eyes when you talk to her.
> > • let her mess with your hair.
> > • touch her hair.
> > • just walk around with her.
> > • FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
> > • look at her like she's the only girl you see.
> > • tickle her even when she says stop.
> > • hold her hand when you're around your friends.
> > • be the one to take her hand, don't make her reach for you
> > • be the one to call her, don't make her always call you
> > • when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
> > • let her fall asleep in your arms.
>> • get her mad, then kiss her.
> > • tease her and let her tease you back.
> > • stay up all night with her when she's sick.
> > • watch her favorite movie with her.
> > • kiss her forehead.
> > • give her the world.
> > • write her letters.
> > • let her wear your clothes.
> > • when she's sad, hang out with her.
> > • let her take all the photos she wants of you.
> > • kiss her in the pouring rain.
> > • when you fall in love with her, tell her.
> > • and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

Those in red are my expectations for guys :D
Haha, though i will still take very long before i can meet one.